And as soon as it’s quiet you are reduced to a thimble.
Find all you can to busy-up your mind.
It’s messy in there and you’d rather not turn on the light.
This fear we all have,
thick like mud, caked,
forms a skin around us.
It’s putrid stink the better part of what we know to be true.
Our pores soak it in,
it fucks us from being free. The great decider of honesty, contentment,
We are filthy in its darkness, addicted.
She is the decider. She, with the blue mind and the pink, pink heart.
She, with the washcloth to your chin. Cleanser of souls, opener of ribs.
Bask, and breathe. Bathe away.
Everything is constantly in a chaotic flow. If you stop holding on, the universe will take you exactly down the right current. Trust the flow, and accept your path.
Trust your intuition, that moment, in the blink of an eye.
In this acceptance, you must also begin to understand that we have everything here that we need already, abundantly. We just can’t see / hear / feel / access it yet.
When you come to realise the multiplicity of possibilities before you, in each moment, you’ll see there really isn’t any reason at all to worry or fear what’s coming. There’s no need to ask “why?” or “what if?” or “when?”
Eventually, all that is left then, is to be in the present. People are starting to realise this en masse now, finding that everything is at our fingertips.
We have the capacity to live freely, at every blink. We are able to feel completely as we are, as it unfolds.
Someone, in an unassuming cafe on the roadside in Canguu, Bali, recently explained an experience to me that I had had myself, but perhaps not put into words so eloquently.
In an ocean of conversation, he was ecstatic about knowing that this life is transient, that our relationships and connections are transient, and always changing.
With fervour, and full lungs, he said this awareness means we should do nothing but always feel completely in the moment, that we should love fiercely when we feel an overwhelming, unexplainable fire inside at the electricity found with someone. That love is powerful. Feel it, fuel it, be it, with all your light.
We are on fire. Burn until you flicker out or grow higher.
Because there is nothing else. As the moon journeys through the stars, in the morning, it is gone.
The deeper our sensitivity and the more acute our alertness to the amazing opportunities for radical insight offered by gaps and transitions like these in life, the more inwardly prepared we will be for when they occur in an immensely more powerful and uncontrolled way… – Sogyal Rinpoche.
How often do we see what we get when we meet someone?
You see me at work, you get to know a tiny part of me, a professional face. But is that me? Am I truly inspired and alive in that moment, fuelled by what I’m doing, burning with desire to do it because it’s truly “me”?
Or is this face just one I put on because I feel I have to? Because I feel that without it, people are confused, offended, uncertain; because people will judge and decide for me that I don’t belong (or that I do)?
It takes time to find your place, your people, and the essence of you. More time still, because we spend much of it trying to meet others’ expectations, often without realising.
You grow your hair for someone else, you make something to their liking, not yours, you give them your time when you really needed it elsewhere, perhaps you take on some of their characteristics around them too. Sometimes we are beautifully selfless, but remembering ourselves is imperative too.
Some of these selfless moments are, of course, you, because they are for you, full of authentic intention.
Be for others guided by you. Let your actions, for you and for others, come from good intention, compassion, love. Take notice of whether they resonate with your beliefs and your dreams. This is where you’ll find your most content self, in honesty.
If you feel you need to be or do something that doesn’t resonate with you, ask yourself – is it because you’re uncomfortable but you could grow from this doing? Or, is it simply not who you are?
If it’s a discomfort that could lead to change, well, dive in. If it doesn’t serve you, walk away and be okay with that. Be okay for choosing you first in that moment.
The house around her shook. The mountains outside crumbled. Their snow-topped caps crashing to form puddles at her feet, toes bitten by the chill.
Stand here. Let it cool you inside out, but don’t go numb.
All those thoughts, like the earthquake, pass. Be aware of them. For outside of them, you’ve found the moments empty of thought.
And in that coolness at your feet, seeds find a way to grow. Be warm with their burning growth, travelling up your legs.
Here is the prickly ignition of your soul, and the softening of your mind.
Rest in natural great peace.
Above all, be at ease; be as natural and spacious as possible. Slip quietly out of the noose of your habitual anxious self, release all grasping, and relax into your true nature.
If you are feeling hard and cold, let this aggression melt away in the sunlight of your meditation. – Sogyal Rinpoche.